Challenge

Nothing even seems to matter anymore...

No point in having a personality
No point in having something interesting to say
No point in sharing your feelings

My feelings, and yours too...

Could I be perfectly honest?
You don't gaze like you once did-
So intently,
Like the first time you fell for me...

I don't understand why I feel this way if I am so wrong
And what if he says really isn't true?
How am I to really know?
I truly worry that you deceive me
Am I pushing myself away?
When will you become a man?
When will you make me happy again?

It feels so fake
I feel like I'm being pushed in every direction
So how the hell can I move forward?

I don't want to be in these relationships anymore

Joshua, you hurt me
Emily, you hurt me

IT'S THE TRUTH
And however the fuck you guys really feel about me,
I must leave for me







But when can I decide?
How will I ever know when to let something go, and when not to?
When will I know for sure?
I don't know what to do.